CAUTION! I'm not sure how this one's gonna come out.

I'm trying really hard not to give into the beast. What I really want to do is curl up in fetal position (as long as I can still pig out and see the TV) and give into the self beating I've got forming in the back of my mind. Why? you ask?
Here are a couple of conversations I've had this week:
JJ: Mom, can you please put him down and pick me up and say, "Sorry, Gibby, not right now."
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Grace: I'm the only baby you wanted. You wanted a sister for me and got JJ, and Gibson...well, you don't like being pregnant.
However, I am CHOOSING to find Joy in the Journey. Thanks, mom.
I've decided a new year is a great time to take advantage of the opportunity to set some goals and get myself in check.
These are just a few:
#1-Hold ALL of my babies.
#2-Attend EVERY ward temple night.
#3-Count my many blessings-and complain only in my prayers or to Jared, and only when Grace is not listening.
#4-Make sure I finish those stories I start...yes, I really wanted a baby girl BEFORE I found out I was having a baby boy and BEFORE I knew what being a mother to the two of them could be.....and no, I don't like being pregnant. That is why it literally took both Jared and I to know that Gibson was exactly what our little family needed. (Sorry, I felt the need to explain.)
#5-More meaningful Family Nights.
And of course, a recommitment to daily scripture study, exercising and eating right, and probably most important
#6-Act on the Spirit-immediately.
Happy New Year! It's gotta be, right?